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doña Cata's avatar

Realizing that I have to live the rest of my life without him is devastatingly depressing. Thank you for sharing your grief.

Adele Nicols's avatar

Jason, I read each word as if it were the last thing on earth I would ever do. Thank you for your openness and sharing your grief journey. It makes me want to meet you, but that sounds weird, so I’m not asking that. I feel strangely connected. You know the very heart of grief as do I, and likely as do all humans who allow themselves to feel after faced with immense loss. You have helped me today in ways I cannot express. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Awaken The Lions In Truth's avatar

Thank you my friend, Jason.

God bless you and keep your whole remaining family safe.

He is Return very soon. Hallelu-Yah.

Cyn's avatar

Thanks for sharing Jason✨️ Much Appreciated ✨️

Candy Kennedy's avatar

You hit the nail squarely on the head with this, Jason. We write through loss to remind ourselves that we continue to love and perpetually work to make them proud. Writing is one key to my heart healing, but living with my eyes wide open is the other. What do I mean? Romancing my way through travel and walks and sunrises and sunsets, returns the love to me. Time is the only antidote to moving through grief.

Marc (Dewey) Boberg's avatar

Grief is hard - it is not something you ‘get over’ but you can learn from it and get through it especially with others who care about you.

Tameka “TJ” Jarmon Hildreth's avatar

I needed this. Thank you.

Jason MacKenzie's avatar

You're so welcome ♥️♥️

Sabrina R. Smith's avatar

Do you also know what it feels like to scream l, huge and silent, so your jaw hurts as the tears tumble down in waterfalls?

Jenny Brandemuehl's avatar

I hear you and feel your deep pain and loneliness. It’s also a shock when you lose your loved one to a premature death. 💖 I lost my beloved husband Mark after he survived a terrible small plane accident 5 years ago. It’s the dark night of the soul.

This saying sort of summed up my shock and bewilderment - “grief is love looking for a home.” We have a hole we’re trying to fill when our loved ones are gone.

I write about my grief journey here

https://jennybrandemuehl.substack.com/p/thriving-again-after-my-husbands

Larry Edge's avatar

Great job writing this, Jason. It was just what I needed at the exact time I needed to read it. I feel the emotion in your words, and I just soaked it all in. What a wonderful blessing you have given me. Take care, dear brother, and may God richly bless your life. Take care!

Jason MacKenzie's avatar

You're so welcome, brother. I'm so glad it resonated with you. ♥️♥️

ABetterWorld 🌎JenStonebrook's avatar

Perfect well done!

jaz's avatar

wow I’m crying

Laura's avatar

It's a gift that your writing helps you feel better and also brings so much comfort to others. What a blessing.

Jason MacKenzie's avatar

Thank you, Laura ♥️

Rebekah  Skaggs's avatar

Thank you for being brave enough to share your story. It’s been 3 1/2 years for me and most days I feel like I’m making progress. With my anniversary and husband’s birthday coming up I feel triggered and have begun to get lost in my grief all over again. I know it will pass but I wonder all over if it will always feel this raw. Again, thank you for being real with your emotions. It helps to know there are others who truly understand this grief.

Jason MacKenzie's avatar

I'm so sorry to hear you lost your husband, Rebekah. It sounds like you love him very, very much and I think that's beautiful.

I think the unpredictability of grief is one of the things that makes it so hard. Just when you feel like you're making some "progress", you're blindsided by another incredibly difficult day.

And the hard truth, is that those difficult days, and how you face them, are the progress. Just as much as the happier and easier days.

Even though we might logically know that, that awareness can feel like cold comfort when grief washes over us. Knowing it will happen again and again and again but rarely knowing when it will happen again can compound the pain and sadness. It's hard to deal with knowing that there are countless other mountains to climb when it's taking everything you've got to climb the one right in front of you.

You're not alone, friend. And while that might not change anything on a day to day basis, remembering that might make some hard moments just a little easier. ♥️♥️

Keely Dowton's avatar

Thank you 🙏🏼❤️

I lost my mum, my soulmate 10 years ago, far too early. The pain still lives within me. I haven’t ’recovered’ and doubt I ever will. I have chosen to live, to find healing, to do the things that give me peace.

Thank you for sharing your grief. I can feel it in your words. We are not alone ❤️

Jason MacKenzie's avatar

I'm so sorry you lost your mama, Keely. Your love for her is a testament to the kind of person she was. Thank you for sharing a little piece of your story with me. ♥️♥️

After The Silence's avatar

Thank you, Jason! I am so deeply sorry for your loss! You've beautifully articulated what so many struggle to express, at least I know have. Losing my husband, 8 years ago this month, has left a deep ache that no amount of time has diminished. And so, I carry it. ❤️

Jason MacKenzie's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss and I admire your spirit and resilience ♥️