My name is Jason MacKenzie. I’m a husband and a father.
I was married once before. I lost my first wife to suicide. Years later, I lost my nineteen-year-old daughter in an impaired driving accident. She was the one driving drunk.
Those losses didn’t just hurt. They changed how I live day to day and what it takes to keep going. Man Down came out of learning the hard way how to live after loss without making things worse than they already are.
Man Down is for men who’ve been hit by a serious loss and are still getting up every day, going to work, and doing what needs to be done.
From the outside, it might look like you’re handling it.
But everything feels so much harder than it used to. Thinking takes more effort. Decisions take longer. You’re more tired, more pissed off, and less patient than you used to be. You push through anyway, because that’s what you’ve always done.
And it’s grinding you down.
Most men are never told what loss actually does. They’re told to stay strong, keep moving, and not make it a big deal. So when life starts feeling harder, they assume they’re failing, broken or losing their shit.
They’re not.
Loss changes how a man operates. It changes how much pressure he can carry, how fast he can think, and how much it takes out of him just to get through the day. When no one names that, most men just push harder and pay for it later.
Man Down exists to give men clear language for what’s happening and practical ways to deal with it without blowing up what they still have.
This isn’t therapy. It isn’t motivation. And it isn’t about turning loss into some kind of lesson.
It’s about understanding what changed and figuring out how to live with it without wrecking what you still have.
If you’re here for yourself, you’re not weak for needing this.
If you’re here because you care about a man who’s been hit by loss, this will help you understand what you’re seeing and why the usual ways of helping seem to be pushing him further away.
